It's been awhile since I've written...so long that I decided just to delete my older posts. Now, I remember why I even made a blog, just so I would be able to express my emotions without actually speaking them out loud BUT I could never find the appropriate words. I think it's time to try again. So, here I go...
It's been a long stressful week. This summer school better pick up or go by faster...if it doesn't, I don't know what I'm going to do. My sleep schedule is so messed up, sleeping during the day then staying up all night. It's not what I'm used to. My days consist of nothing. I go to school, come home and just sit. I'm going to Granbury tomorrow and I honestly can say I can't wait just to get away from this town for a night or two. I'm trying to figure out why I decided to move here in the first place. I CAN say that I learned a lot about some people that I never thought I would. Maybe my parents were right, I'm so consumed in holding the old relationships from High School that it is holding me back from making newer and more healthier relationships. I just feel stuck. I miss my best friend. During the school year, even though we were 5 hours away we still would communicate multiple times a day. Now she is back in Granbury for the summer, only 45 minutes away and we go days without talking. Not even a simple text. I have a lot I need to think about. I need to think about what I want. I dug myself in such a big hole that I will have to return to Tarleton to retake credits. That was not in my plan. Why did I allow myself to get such off course? Maybe my plan was wrong. God is trying to tell me something. I need to listen closer. 
romans 8:28
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